Hello……I’m kind of at a loss for words right now. I’m a little out of it. I have so much I want to say in this post but finding it hard on where to start. I will say that I am glad it’s the weekend. I plan on being a shut-in this whole weekend. I have a terrible cold, ugghh! But, I just need some me, myself, and I time too you know what I mean. The week has been hectic, hell if I’m honest it’s been hectic since the start of the new year.
So I was recently asked along with some other friends how long I’ve been apart of the SL community and that got me to thinking back to when I started. Which then got me feeling some kind of way, like sad. I started with a different avi 11years ago. I know right! and like so many others it was just a way to escape the issues of my RL. I completely immersed myself into Second Life. I was loving it!
Well not long after starting I met the most awesome man you could ever find in SL. He was a beautiful person, so caring, thoughtful and honest. We had a whirlwind relationship, I knew within a couple of weeks that I loved this man. We partnered up and starting making our SL lives together. Things went so perfect for us that I couldn’t believe it, I was so happy. We had a home on an island together that we both decorated. We did everything together. This lasted for two whole years! Like that’s 10 years of RL time in SL time (smiles).
So I have to admit I messed this one up. I really think I have Munchausen Syndrome of some sort, like it’s hard for me to accept that it’s ok to be happy so I’ll make myself miserable. So that’s what I did to us. Started picking and causing fights making us both unhappy because why should we be happy! I know it just threw him for a loop and he left me. I don’t blame him, but of course I realized what I had afterwards.
So I left and I came back and I left again and came back again. Each time trying to get him back. He would always respond to me, even hung out some but, just would not fully commit as before. So I left again, this time for 3 years. I came back. He’s gone completely has not been on in almost 4 years. I don’t think he’s coming back and the sad thing is I have no idea if he’s alive or dead. That is so hard to deal with in SL and so easy to happen. Well that is why my new avi is only 2 years old but I can not make myself delete the previous one. I won’t stay sad though, I love my 2nd Second Life (smiles). I’m more involved with this one and have more friends, it’s just some times I still think of him….
Thank you! I hope you have enjoyed this little piece of my world and that you will return for more pieces (smiles). Until the next time …. be safe, happy and full of Second Life!